Loss, October 11, 2014
I remember how stunned I felt when I suddenly lost my husband that day in 2006. I remember how completely helpless I was and how numb I felt, except for the pain of the loss, which was excruciating. I remember how lonely I was. It was as if I had suddenly been torn apart. He had been ripped away from me and I didn’t know who I was anymore. I was incomplete. I felt like God was so far away and very silent. I wanted to know WHY……why had He taken my Jim?
However, as people came and surrounded me and just wrapped me in their presence and in their love, as cards came in expressing sympathy, with thoughts and memories of my husband, and as friends came and helped me with getting on with the mechanics of life, I slowly realized that this is where God was. He was right there, in the hands and feet of those comforters. He had been there all along. He had not left me, and He cared about my loss. He loved me and He loved Jim. He had taken Jim home, and He was going to provide for me.
It has been a long journey, with lots of twists and bumps, but God has proved faithful in every way imaginable. I owe everything to Him, and thank Him for every lesson learned in the process I went through.
Our God is an awesome God! ❤ ❤ ❤
When my daughter passed away, I was quite angry for a while. I couldn’t figure out why God would take our little girl. It took me a while to see his hand in things around me. I’m sorry for your loss.
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Thanks. And thanks for sharing about your loss. That would have been very hard.
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