A taste of FAITH, a touch of LAUGHTER.
This reading from Oswald Chambers brought tears to my eyes, because I am aware that I fall so short in so many ways, but I now see and understand clearly that it is the UNDERLYING thoughts that are completely erroneous. It is true that I fall short. However, any shame at my shortcomings means essentially that I am still thinking that it is ME that is doing or not doing something or that it is up to ME to do something, when it is not. It is ALL GOD doing something THROUGH this highly imperfect vessel. I KNOW this intellectually, But do I live in that REALITY?
It’s also true that in this faulty thinking, I am in all practicality doubting God’s capacity to use me perfectly. Who am I to make that judgement? “Shall not the judge of all the earth do RIGHT?” His choice. His foreknowledge. His wisdom. My presumption. My arrogance. My ignorance.
The realization of all of this in one brief moment of perception both amazes and humbles me and brings the tears to my eyes. To be honest, these tears consist also of an element of genuine RELIEF, that it is ultimately not mine to carry, but His to take care of. We are to enter His REST, (“My yoke is EASY”) not just in the afterlife of eternity but also in the practicalities of the present, the NOW.
These tears of mine are furthermore a recognition of the awesome GRACE of God that chooses to use this imperfect vessel. The knowledge that He truly does LOVE me and FORGIVES me simply because I am HIS. I am His child, not by my own efforts but by what was done for me on the cross. “NOTHING in my hands I bring. Simply to Thy cross I cling”.
I always remember that David, in the Psalms, asks God many times over to CAUSE him to walk in His ways, and it was a prayer appropriated for many years. I believe it is the proper recognition of what is taking place in the life of a believer looking to God and trusting in His empowerment.
I trust that this reading will touch you in the deep places….by the Spirit of the Living God. He is the One with Whom we have to do.