A taste of FAITH, a touch of LAUGHTER.
It has been a very hard day today, experiencing the anniversary of my husband’s passing while in Kyuquot. He was born here. Our home together was here. We had family together here. He passed away here, in our house, sitting in his favourite chair.
I am in Kyuquot because our old house on reserve is slated to be demolished. I left Kyuquot in 2011, because of my health, five years after my husband passed away. Everything was left as is. Furniture, possessions, everything to do with our life in that house together as family. A houseful of memories.
Other people have been housed there since, but now it has to come down and I’m here to sort through things, to empty the house completely.
I’ve been going over to the reserve from an island where I am staying to the house every day to work on this project. It has been ok mostly, but today I just could not bring myself to go there. I woke up in tears, thinking of my Jim, and could not get myself out of bed. I was so very heavy with grief.
When I did manage to get up, I had a hard time just going about business here. Friends have supported me online through this struggle of a day with all of their love and prayers. I’m very thankful for them.
I’m shocked at how hard this day has been. This was unexpected. It had been getting easier as the years passed by. It has been 11 years now, today.
I think the reason it is so much harder this year is just because i am back here, where it all happened and I have been spending time daily with memories.
This day is coming to a close. This part of my life in the community of Kyuquot is coming to an end. There will be closure in many ways after this day and in the days to come.
There is, however, a new day tomorrow. I will start fresh…..
Love you, Jim ❤